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Name: Ben
Country: United States
State: Maryland
Birthday: 12/18/1984
Gender: Male
Interests: So I like a lot of things. Probably a lot more than I can think of off the top of my head, but here's what I got: I love music, all kinds (even some you may despise). And I love to play drums. I'm not too bad, may even be great at it one day. We'll see how that goes. I love hanging out with my friends. I love spending time with them more than just about anything else. I like sports, especially baseball and hockey, but I also like random ones that no one cares about (I guess hockey would fit that description now, huh?). I love Jesus. He's the man. Also my biggest role model. Now that I go to school in Massachusetts, I love being from Maryland (that's basically my last name there too). And for the randomnimity. . .
I like cheese, cold weather, sunflower seeds, annapolis, staying up late at night, being able to stay up late at night, having friends that are crazy, knowing people that are unashamed of bein themselves, coca-cola, sleep, and much much more . . .
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AIM:  Capcrazy15
Member Since:
3/22/2005
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| Fall out, fall through, fall apart
The endless cycle once i start
Plan B, Plan C, watch it go
And crumble into broken hopes
All around i fall apart and cant you see i'm
All around i'm all apart and cant you see i'm
All around i'm all apart and cant you see i'm
All around i'm all apart and cant you see i'm
Mend it all, mend it all
Mend it all, mend it all
All ive torn, all ive run to the ground
Broken down, come mend it all
Days are slipping through my hands
I'm holdin on in sinking sand
And to make it worse
I've made a mess
Can you make any sense of this?
All around i'm all apart and cant you see i'm
All around i'm all apart and cant you see i'm
All around i'm all apart and cant you see i'm
All around i'm falling apart and cant you see i'm
-plan b
mutemath
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| tonight was one of the most amazing nights i've had in a very very long time. thank you.
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| Requiem aeternam dona eis, Domine
So
I've become really tired lately. And I don't think it's because of lack
of sleep, although that never helps either. I've come up with many
things that I've seen that have contributed to my weariness. Before I
say any of them, it is my hope that you are not offended or angered by
these, but challenged and maybe make you stop and take a step back and
possibly reevaluate how your living. As always, I myself in no way have
everything figured out and am telling you what you need to get right.
This aimed at me as much as anyone else. I want to contribute to
positive change in this world, and while this probably won't do much of
anything, at least writing these down will help me get some rest. So
here's what has been weighing me down, some in no particular order,
others are:
- I'm tired of people in the church being offended by anything that makes them uneasy.
- I'm tired of the unequal treatment of people because of class,
gender, beliefs, race, and anything else that makes someone different.
- I'm tired of how many people refuse to see that happens.
- I'm tired of people saying they're not the problem, while not being a part of the solution, either.
- I'm tired of bickering over petty things, while failing to see big problems.
- I'm tired of inwardly focused Christians have become, while not
bothering with the world around. Which is what it should be doing.
- I'm tired of how the church has focused more on the individual, and less on community.
- I'm tired of how the world's view of Jesus' message is the opposite of what it really is.
- I'm tired of all the hate in this world.
- I'm tired that people are more prone to fight first, than to find a peaceful solution.
- I'm tired of pointless close-minded arguing, instead of open-minded dialogue and discussion.
- I'm tired of people who put up with bullshit answers and statements and never question or ask the simple question, why?
- I'm tired of those people that freely give out those answers and statements.
- I'm tired of Christians who immediately stop listening to what someone has to say as soon as a cuss word is used.
- I'm tired of Christians that do the opposite and cuss every other word. We can do better than that.
- I'm tired of badmouthing someone just because you don't like them.
- I'm tired of the notion that Christians have to be almost spineless
and act like they like everyone, while in reality there will be people
you can't actually get along with (and by the way, you can still be
loving to someone you don't like).
- I'm tired of talking behing other's backs, and acting fake when in front of them.
- I'm tired of not being the same person at all times and in all situations.
- I'm tired of people quick to point a finger, while failing realize that four fingers point back when they do that.
- I'm tired of peole that refuse to grow up.
- I'm tired of people that take everything seriously and can't laugh at things, especially themselves.
- I'm tired of people killing other people out of pure hatred.
- I'm tired of the people killing out of hatred, doing it in the name of something else. Especially God.
- I'm tired of a mentality that says "my country first, screw the rest of the world," and then calling it patriotism.
- I'm tired of being hated just because of where I'm from.
- I'm tired of not doing enough for others in need.
- I'm tired of not doing enough to change the world's current view of Christians.
- I'm tired of people taking things at face value, and not searching for deeper meaning.
- I'm tired of people being inconsiderate of others.
- I'm tired that people are more willing to hold others' past against
them, instead of being willing to forgive. Especially if it is
forgiveness they seek.
- I'm tired that very few people can really grasp what forgiveness is.
- I'm tired of people no longer saying what they mean.
- I'm tired of people that don't believe anything you say.
- I'm tired of how bad people are at relationships (romantically and otherwise).
- I'm tired of how guys manipulate and take advantage of girls.
- I'm tired of how the media controls so many parts of peoples' lives.
- I'm tired of how people allow the media to do that.
- I'm tired of how people in poverty have to worry about things that we have easy access to.
- I'm tired of peope having to worry about losing their life everytime
they step outside, while others get mad about losing one in a video
game.
- I'm tired of divisions in the church, when we're all trying to follow the same God.
- I'm tired of us and them mentalities, especially in the church.
- I'm tired of issues trying to be painted in black and white, when I find it funny that we can see in color.
- I'm tired of God being put into a box.
- I'm tired of negative views of the world and where it is heading, leaving no room for hope that it can be better.
- I'm tired of people seeing only the bad in others, and not bothering to look for the good in them.
- I'm tired of worrying about makeing people mad by what I say.
I'm tired of the lack of communication between all people. If we all
stopped and sat and listened to what each other had to say, would there
be so much hate?
- I'm tired of not being bold enough to say something when it needs to be said.
- I'm tired that I feel like I can only write these thoughts down instead of say them aloud.
- I'm tired of the fact that I've probably made someone mad, when I just want to get this off my chest.
- I'm tired of being guilty of so many of these statements.
- And I'm tired of feeling like I've been doing nothing but complaining.
To those that I've oppressed and angered, I deeply apologize. Again my
goal is not to piss the whole world off. I hope this makes you just
stop and think for a moment. I realize that no one is going to totally
agree with everything I said. I am totally open to discussing any of
this, just not arguing who is right or wrong. I do not know that much,
this is just how I feel. If nothing else, just remember this:
I don't want division, only reconciliation and peace.
a fellow child just trying to find his way home,
Beno | | |
| Complication Is My Claim To Fame
I Can't Believe There's Another, Constantly Just Another
Can't Avoid What I Can't Control
I'm Losing Ground, Still I Can't Stand Down
I Know, Yea I Know…
I Know You Stay True When My World Is False
Everything Around's Breaking Down To Chaos
I Always See You When My Sight Is Lost,
Everything Around's Breaking Down To Chaos
It's Hard To Trust Anyone Again
After All The Let Downs I've Been Through,
Haunted By What I've Been Through.
Air's Still Trapped, While I Still Can't Breathe,
And I'm Screaming Out, Give Me Help Somehow.
I Know, Yea I Know…
I Know You Stay True When My World Is False
Everything Around's Breaking Down To Chaos
I Always See You When My Sight Is Lost,
Everything Around's Breaking Down To Chaos
…Chaos
I Know You Stay True
Mutemath -
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| It is soooo good to be back. Everything is right with the world again. And I officially don't like driving. | | |
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